If i know you at all, i know you've gone too far

I'm obsessed with the song "stars" by Grace Potter and the Noctunals. I don't know why.


I have decided that I want to be the kind of person who makes her bed every day.  Clean sheet day is literally something I look forward to. Turning down and climbing into a bed what is made is something that i appreciate about clean sheet day. That and wrapping myself up in the scent of clean laundry and the feel of crisp cool sheet. Especially in the summer, with the bedroom windows open, after a shower where youve just shaved your legs.  It's one of my favorite feelings.

So, I want to be a person who makes her bed everyday because it's a little like clean sheet day every day, and it makes me feel like an adult, and i'm real into that lately.

Also, as for my summer rhythm, I'm working it out. I think it's going to be along the lines of wake up, shower, breakfast, read for fun, read for school, write, spend as much time as possible outside, projects, coffee, walk/work out, run around the city and love everything and be incredibly grateful for this life i have. And, i guess the older i get, the most i realize that the things i love about life aren't things that have anything to do with money or status. They're simple and mostly free and without them life would not even be worth living. I care deeply about people and relationhips and memories and the way spring smells, and the way it feels to drive with the windows down in the summer with sun kissed skin and your favorite songs playing.

Speak of  this life. 31 has done something to me. It's made me...apathetic? no, more secure? Like I just don't worry about things like I used to. Most days I feel okay to good in my skin, and I just don't want to waste energy on being bitter or angry or hurt. I've spent too much time in the last part of my 20's feeling like a sad puppy and i'm just over it.

Today I also had the realization that when you're doing what you should be and spending time with the people who are good for you, life is better. It's still hard, and it's still exhausting, but you don't mind the work, or you do, but it's not the worst.

Taking time to just be happy is not time wasted.

Also, I've been and will continue to read books on writing for school purposes, obviously, but also because i want to spend time with good writing and good techniques. I want to know if you can teach someone to be a good writer or if you just are one by design.

So there's that. In addition, I made a bunch of kids answer the question: "what do you unequivocally believe in?" I have my own list. So...here.

1. Jesus. Obviously.
2. Having at least one pair of good jeans that make your butt look great.
3. Saying thank you
4. saying I love you.
5.  Laughter has the power to heal
6. things getting better.
7. hard work.
8. best friends
9. pinkie promises
10. the best moments in life being simple and quite and unsuspecting.

oh. what do you unequivocally believe in? I'm done rambling for now. See you tomorrow!