There are just days when the lies in my head win. 

Today is one of them.  

Some days it's just glaringly obvious that i still want to be a cool kid. 

and i'm lost. 

and i feel guilty about everything. 

and i keep trying to force things to happen, that clearly will not. 

and i'm broke. so, so, so broke. 

everyone is always better than i am, i'm always so dramatic. my tone is always wrong. i'm always sassy. 

and today, i just can't.