A whole new decade. I wont lie, I'm super glad to be rid of my 20s. The last 3 years were ROUGH. and i'm still trying to climb my way of the shitstorm.
and i'm not doing the best job.
but...anyway, i love birthdays. a lot. i think they're the best and i think that everyone should have 6 every year because we really do not stop and celebrate each other enough. Nor do we spend enough time thinking about the impact we're making.
I just think it's important for people to feel loved and celebrated.
well, i'm not having a birthday party....because i don't wanna plan it and i'm not sure who would even show up.
and that give me ALL KINDS OF ANXIETY
I have in my head that i've burned a lot of bridges though i did nothing to set fire to them, and i'm really sick of apologizing to people for not knowing how to deal with a broken heart, and car and no money.
I don't know how to be in crisis other than to just shut everyone out.
But....still here i still with a blinking cursor unable to pull together a list to even birthday dinner with.
bah. humbug. i don't wanna have a birthday.
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