Today was rough. It's Monday, so that in and of itself makes it rough, but this Monday was a bit different.
Between kids crying in the bathroom and in my room for all of the reasons and just...no reason. coupled with a student being the hospital still, and another student learning there is nothing to do for her dad's stage for cancer except keep him comfortable....it feels like a lot, and my heart just breaks for them.
Not to mention the typical school stuff that is the sass, the privilege, and the lack of caring...which just gets old, and it doesn't even help to know that these students are like this in all their classes. Its just frustrating.
I might get the summers off, but i also love and pour into 100+ kids a day, all while trying to teach them how to be good humans and literate humans.
It's whole thing.
And the general sad feeling from yesterday. I don't really like feeling left out or when people say my feelings aren't valid, or that i'm being sensitive when sometimes thats not it..
ugh. life, right? Sometimes you just need someone to hug you and tell you they love you. We all need it. I could really use it today.
As i look toward lent this year...my head is not in the right place. i have no idea what my lent will look like. I need to focus. But i'm excited for Ash Wednesday. Digging into this season is one of the best things i've ever learned from Brad and Rita. It always takes me to a different place, and it always makes my heart sting a little bit.
so, i'm reluctant to accept what lent has for me mostly because i want a break from the hard stuff for a minute.
Thankful for new days, and that spring break is in like 5 weeks. and that spring is coming and so is Jesus.
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