When someone tells you they love you, you gotta believe them....

Yeah, you bet I started this baby with a TSwizzle lyric. Don't even act like you don't love her.

Don't worry, I'm not going to get all weepy and mushy about anyone tonight. No one needs to ride that train more than once.

I don't really have anything specific i need to address tonight but i would like to take to opportunity to chat, just for a quick minute, about that friend we all have....who is completely flaky, self centered a little shady.

Yep, the friend you love, whom you miss and want to spend time with because it's been a while since you've spent any time together. And while you've made half hearted attempts to get together on facebook they rarely go past "miss you" and "miss you, too. Coffee soon"

and that's it. Soon never comes because if you want it to come, you have to make it happen. so you send a text, and you make plans...and then it's a big cluster. and you remember why you dont' do this more often.

so, why do we keep doing this to ourselves?

Well, ultimately, because we love people, and tellin' them to eff off isn't easy or kind and i think on the whole we all strive to be good people.

and you remember the good things, and how much you laugh and talk about random things when you're together....if you get manage to get in the same room. And then you feel bad for being frustrated.

It boils down to history. Someone who knew you when...or you knew them when. Lots of things have happened over the months and years and they hold significance to us. We dont' throw away things that have meaning.

However, i've decided tonight after watching a this all unfold for the 294th time. I'm out. i'm jumping ship. I will continue to love these people, and think of them fondly when i remember, but there is no longer anything compelling me to continue caring and being involved the way i am.

And the rocky stuff has been real rocky and i just don't know that i can maintain a relationship with someone who treats me as a plan c and has for the most part just been kind of a "taker."

The beautiful thing for me, though, is they're moving. So, our relationship will fizzle and i wont have to "sit down and talk" about this.

so thats good.