she loves her mama's lemonade, and hates the sounds that goodbyes make....

 August  is quickly approaching, which means the end of summer, and some hard goodbyes.

My Julia is going to college. I don't know how to explain my love for Julia. She is my little sister, an extension of myself, a littler me with more brains and beauty than she knows what to do with.  (i had some brains when i was her age, but not the beauty)

She is my girl. i will always try to protect her, and help her and love here from where ever i am. I will be her 3 am call, and i'll drive my ass to Beliot, 5 hours, in the middle of the night if i have to.

I'm so excited for her to take this step into becoming more of who she is in a place that is new and exiting.

But i'm real sad about it, too because i can't keep tabs on her like i'd like, I can't watch out for her like i can do here, and i just don't want her to lose her mind or her vcard before she's ready.

I feel like with people you love you always want something better for them. I want her to find a solid group of people. Who will know when to cut her off and make her go home, who will be honest and kind with her, and i want her to find a boy who love her and is nice.

four years ago, i would never have thought she'd grab my heart the way she has but i would walk through fire for her....so now, i'm just praying every day that God prepares her for what's ahead and that she's protected.

Emma leaves too. She's going to Columbus to explore post-grad life with a boy who loves her to the moon and back. I'm excited to see where life takes them, yet. I'm sad that i can't have a front row seat.

I feel like i'm watching them learn how to ride a bike. I realize i'm taking too much ownership over them...and its probably a little weird. But if you knew the whole story, i'm sure you'd understand more.

August 19th will come and i will cry good tears and sad ones because watching pieces of your heart leave is something to get emotional about.

you know?