love and other drugs....

This is a declaration of sorts:

Starting tomorrow I gonna start being intentional about praying for specific things. I want to spend more time trying to hear from God instead of walking around confused and frustrated. I can feel my frustration leading away from hanging out with Jesus instead of to him...which as it turns out, is a problem.

Here's the deal. I've never been a consistent journaler, i don't set aside time every day to actually sit down and make a space for prayer. I say a lot of prayers in my head daily, but i don't create a space.  Because life gets busy and i don't have that kind of dedication. I don't spend time reading my bible every day....and i have volunteered for anything in a long time.

Yet, I'm surprised when I don't feel super compelled or called to anything....I'm not paying attention and I'm not listening.

And I'm going to be real. This isn't going to happen every day. I'm gonna forget or just not want to do it. We're going to try for a couple times a week, and hope to get better as this continues.

baby steps on the the bus. Baby steps. *side note: I LOVE WHAT ABOUT BOB*

ahem...back to Jesus...

so here are my prayers.

1. Lisa (and the team of women) going to Uganda. For the trip, the preparation, the work they'll do, the work that'll be done in them. safety, health, etc.

2. My Kindalls and all the healing that needs to happen.

3. what Fall looks like for me (also, my furture, but remember, baby steps). Open doors to jobs that pay the bills and my heart....

4. whatever my journey with Gallery/Crossroads/random new church? looks like...and that everything happens with as little collateral damage as possible especially for my heart.

5. relationships that need mending/healing/whatever...

that seems overwhelming... but...we serve a big God.

and i need to serve more. because i'm not. and that's not ok.