It's real nice feeling when you finally feel like you've caught your breath....

I love New Year's Eve. and New Year's Day a lot.

For starters, they are an opportunity to get dressed up, and i associate them with being sparkly. which is a type of Synesthesia I'm sure. I also am really into recapping things, making lists and having a reason to hang out with my favorite people and drink things that make my cheeks rosey.

Anyway, this year, I have no New Years Eve plans which is kind of lame but it's ok, too, because i have nothing to wear. I like to remember the epic new years eve when we all lost our minds, i drank straight of the punch bowl...and most of us ended up crying and yelling...and the heel of my boot broke and then i had to break the other on off, too...and then i looked like the wicked witch, and Melissa forgot her id, but at the end of the night we sang the spice girls, and the morning after..we were all hung over but we laughed, so, so much....

anyway, though my plans don't include the people i normally spend NYE with, i think it's just beautiful that I'm bookending 2013 with the A-team...i mean...poetic is the only way to describe it. This time, though, i'm not locked out of anywhere and i'm not sad. i'm just thankful. For everything that this year has brought.  

So, i'm not one for resolutions for a bunch of reason but mostly because, well, sometimes i suck at follow through, but there's just funny little bucket list of things I am thinking about for 2014.

1. go to the Judy Garland museum in Grand Rapids.
2. go to at least one really great concert.
3. i'm going to say yes to more things that are fun and no to the things that are life sucking.
4. i'm going to everything i've committed to, and i'm going to do it well.
5. winter carnival.
6. i'm going to read more.
7. I'm going to find a place to volunteer outside of church.
8. i'm going celebrate things and people that are important to me.
9. more laughter. fewer tears.
10. i'm just going to try to love everyone and everything more than i did before.

2013 was all about refining and transformation and the reality is that i'm going to hit the ground running, letting go of all the shit  and the hard the made my heart hurt. So i'm flipping some tables and giving some fingers to all the things that were weighing me down.

so that's a thing that's happening. I like laughing and being happy and that's exactly what i'm doing to do. And also, maybe get a second job, because at some point i need to continue being and adult.