on saying goodbye...

everything got a little too real today....i needed to re-read my words i wrote almost two years ago.....


I've done my fair share of hurting this year.
I've also had my little heart
shattered.
more than once.

Resilience is something i'll never understand
how those pieces just find their way back home
making my heart whole again
it has it's cracks, and it's dips
but it beats hard.
strong.
with a love that shines.

Maybe we don't need to understand
why some things work and others don't
why even after words so sharp rip through your skin
and leave you breathless.
you can forgive.
learn.
move on.
get it right.

Letting people know you love them
sometimes isn't enough.
They have to know
that you don't get it
either.
well, fuck.
we're all in this together.

Desperately clinging to what
was. is fruitless.
change.
but change together.
support every avenue
even though they may
fork and veer off
the good ones
always find their way back.

sometimes you need to spill our heart
sometimes it's ugly, and unrecognizable
sometimes it's sad and sweet.
you need to spill it to the people who
catch you. and
catch your hearts desires
in a butterfly net
and help you hold on

you need to look in the mirror
face all the pieces,
especially the weird shaped ones
that fit together
to make your
mosaic.

Without those pieces
something is missing
though some parts shine.
other parts sparkle
you need the dark
to balance the light
to know how good it feels
to love
and be loved
and be happy
hopeful.

sometimes the mirror is ugly
sometimes you need to hold hands
face it together
but you ought to look it
and know
you are not the sum of your parts
and triumph has already come
everyone is waiting
for you.
to love yourself
as much as they
love you.
as much as HE
loves you.