Today, just in this moment, I'm giving myself permission to feel all the things that are stirring that are the opposite of optimism.
I am feeling awkward, and sad and disappointed and like an alien in all the spaces that once felt like home.
Today, i felt invisible. And apparently I've made my family feel like I'm too busy for them so....the dont' call me on my birthday.
Which wouldn't be a big deal if wasn't already feeling a multiple levels of melancholy.
and it rained and was cold so there was no apple orchard.
This year i didn't even blow out any candles, and it feels like this is the year i need to make some big wishes.
Thankfully the A-team is amazing and make up for what ever I'm lacking. they're always good and always sweet .
so...I'm about to suck it up because we got biggeer fish to fry. Like a pregnant single mom who needs some love.
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