i really like to be a favorite. a best friend. the one who gets it right 97 percent of the time and reads all the signals well, and who knows what to do and how to respond before it anything happens. I like knowing people well.
that's not my currently reality and the truth is, I'm not interested in trying to get there, really. I should be trying to one up people and out "thoughtful" them, but I'm not. I'm kind of tired.
I'm just gonna be who i am, and i don't care if sometimes i swear, or never wear make up, or am not trendy. When I'm super on my game, I'm charming and funny and sweet, and snarky at the same time.
I'm like a war head, sour at first then sweet at the center. Because at the end of the day i just want to be nice.
I just feel like I'm supposed to be winning everyone's heart and i have no idea how to it and i don't know if want to.
I just feel awkward and like I'm in the way all the time.
Isn't that the dumbest things you've ever heard? yeah. i think so too. i hope this phase of awkward dies quickly.
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