Last night, or, well, this morning, i guess, I woke up at like 3:30. Wide awake, kind of awake. I'm clearly not into subtle, at all, and thankfully neither is God.
When i wake up in the middle of the night, i know it's because i'm supposed to be praying, but as i was laying there, i wasn't sure what exactly i should start praying for. That's not to say that there are not things i'm praying for, but at that moment nothing was really weighing on me at it was 3:30 in the morning.
This was a not so subtle reminder that i have NOT been chatting with God. I haven't prayed about as much as i've thought about it. "it" being all the things that i should be praying about. i haven't really prayed with intention in forever. i'll say passing "hey, work in this" kind of prayers. but sitting down, reading and talking to god....well, it's been awhile.
So, i spewed, i hung out in the gap for a long time. i prayed for my attitude and my heart there is a TON of work that needs to be done there.
When i'm not doing what i'm supposed to do to maintain a relationship, it feels distant and like it's crumbling, so...at 3:30 in the morning, the message was received. i need to do more and i need to be better about it because when i don't, i feel off kilter.
So, there's that.
in other news, Katy Perry will be here in August. I'm beside myself.
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