Saturday, January 11, 2014

Child of weakness watch and pray, find in me, thine all in all.....

I kind of love how funny life is, most of the time, it's like ha-ha funny at my expense. Or, at least, it seems that way.

Yesterday, though, life was just exactly what i needed it to be. I'd be lying if i said i felt overwhelming amounts of love lately, and i'd be lying if i said i didn't need a tangible reminder. Yesterday, i laughed with my coworkers a lot, i got drive by coffee-ed, my dad gave me money, just because.

There's a whole lot of love in my life, and i'm so thankful.

Last January, I picked two words that i wanted to follow me through 2013, and to be honest, I kind of forgot about them half way through the year. I'm pretty sure they were peace and obedience. I think i did an okay job of them, i guess. Although, peace...is still a work in progress....i mean, i guess obedience is, too. Whatever. I like to make things complicated, which is a little ironic.


This year, i'm picking two new words. Why, well, mostly because lisa told me to, but it's an interesting take an a New Years...thing...and y'all know how i feel about new years. so...i'll take the challenge.

This year my words are "celebration" and "simplicity" and let me tell you why.

1. last year was about hurt and healing. so, i was sad a lot. and now, well, i think that i need to shift my focus a little. I think it's important to feel what you're feeling. I think it's important to have time to just be where you are...even if it's in the trenches of sadness, and as annoying it is for other people. I needed a good solid year to lose my mind, feel sad and figure out how to feel better.

And now, i feel a lot better, so, i want to celebrate what's good and who's good in my life instead of focusing on Who hurt me and What sucks. So, this year, i want to celebrate things and people that are good. I want to be excited that it's sunny and that it smells like spring, and that God has carried all of us to this point.

So, that's cool.

2. i tend to be over dramatic and I tend to over complicate situations.And really, i don't need to. At all. Really, i just need to be honest, ask for what i need, and call it a day and remember that not everyone is trying to break my heart.

So. those are my words, and i'll probably forget about them, and they're will still be days where i feel like no one loves me....but i'm going to try hard for 2014 to be a year of celebration. 

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