Friday, October 14, 2011

AT least it's the first day of the rest of my life.....

Alright, kids, listen. This is going to be my "birthday" post, and to be honest, i have no idea what that even means.
I feel 27 is worth reflecting on. Now, granted my 27 years have been pretty limited when compared a lot of people, so if you came here looking for anything profound you're probably not going to find it.. Still, i will pretend to bestow my wisdom like the Dali Lama, so sit at my feet, and enjoy the ride. 

One of my  friends said to me recently, " You know why i love you so much?" 
a strange question, no doubt. Especially since she asked while i was laying in her bed doing nothing while she was doing real work. If i were her, i wouldn't have loved me right at the moment.....BUT.... I took her bait. and said "Because you can borrow my clothes? " Obviously, unable to actually have a serious conversation.
After calling me the devil, she said, "because at first you look at calm and put together but after spending like a minute with you,  i realized you're just as crazy as the rest of us" 

That's my Katie, dropping a whole lot of truth on me while still being crazy and screaming out window at barking dogs, sorting papers, and folding clothes and making me laugh so hard i almost pee. This is a rare, and it's why i'm so so so thankful for her.

And she's right. If there is one thing I've taken to heart in the past couple of years it's that. I am  little crazy. I'm  little passive aggressive, my feelings get hurt more easily then most, i'm CLUMSY and i have a hole heap of insecurities. I'm a lot of other things too, good things. Like, clean, for example. i'm clean.

Just like everyone else. 

Well, shit. It's actually the most beautiful thing in the entire world because THAT is what makes me my very own brand of Crazy. It teaches me a lot, and in 27 years this is what i know.

1. I am nothing with out God. I love Jesus more than anything and that love is  the REASON i do anything and everything.
2. I the opposite of perfect. I am still judgmental, and whiney, and petty, and sassy....i have a long way to go, but i'm learning. 
3. Relationships matter. SO much. In fact, there are the most important thing. To me, anyway. 
4. I am doing what makes me happy, and it really doesn't matter if i get paid for it or not.
5. I have a servant's heart. I just want to help, and to love.
6. For everything there is a season. That's ok. (as much as i HATE when people talk about seasons, it's true) 
7. Everything has a resolution. even if it's not what i want it to be.
8. Fall is my favorite season.
9. My best friends are the most amazing people in the entire world and i am so thankful for them
10. I will never be the kind of girl that spends a long time getting ready and staring in the mirror. I like flip flops and dresses, and jeans, and flats and skirts that twirl. I don't know that i would make a good corporate wife.
11. I get flustered when i have to call people i don't know
12. good songs, movies and books make me cry.
13. I cry about once a week about good and bad things, and i need that to happen.
14. I have changed a lot in the last couple of years/ mostly, for the better
15.  I still believe in happily ever after
16. i sing so loud when i'm alone in the car, i sometimes annoy myself.
17. I need affirmation.
18. i've found myself in the middle of this beautiful, amazing, dynamic community and i do no want to be anywhere else
19. I want to save the world. and i will. Damn it.
20. I cuss  all the time.
21. I hate vacuuming/
22. I love red wine.
23. I am bad at good byes.
24.  I allergic to most nature, but freakin' love farmers market flowers
25. it's ok that my dreams are anyone else's.
26. Home is where your heart is, and my heart is in a lot of places
27. I'm bad at getting older, but really good at stayin' alive.

so, i don't know anything that will change the world, or my life really. I do know, that this is the happiest i've been a long, long time. I have a perma-grin and an uncontainable laugh. I know it's because Jesus has my back and i'm livin' for the who makes the moon reflect the sun.....ha. But for real, yo'. The lord provides/

So on wednesday, though i wont be with the people who created me, i will be surrounded by people who love me SOOOO well, and whom i love with my entire heart and then some. That's really all you can ask on your birthday.

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