If Destiny called and i missed my cue....

Here's what i've decided.  I don't think there is anything you're "supposed" to do. What i mean by that is, i don't think you're going along in life and you, at some point, stumble upon what you're "supposed" to do.

i think that's a bunch of shit.

I think at one point, i really wanted to be a teacher, and, now, I don't. Whether you agree with me or not, that ship has sailed.  And that, ladies and gents, is what i thought I was "supposed" to do with life.

So, what now?

If everyone is supposed to do something specific, why wouldn't we just know? What is the point of the journey....especially if some people find their "supposed tos" right before they die. I Just don't think its a thing.

I also don't think God plays games with us. I dont' think we're supposed to guess what and who we are supposed to be in life. I think that we all have some cool things we can do. I think it makes us all really neat and worth knowing, but i do not think that we necessarily need to use these gifts in our career. We're just supposed to do them.

So work at Ameriprise pushin' paperwork and teach little kids spanish in your free time.

OR be a teacher and show kids who jesus is (subtly of course...separation of church and state. ahem)

I don't think God cares....he just wants you do to what you were designed to do, the choice is yours on what that looks like in your life.

Well, if you asked me what i want to do with my life. If i could have any job ever right now. Most of the time, i tell people i'd be a writer. or a nail polish namer or the person who picks songs to go on sounds tracks and in movies....

is that last one even a thing? i don't even know.  plus, i'm pretty lousy writer, no one is gonna pay money to read my word vomit...

Those are all jobs i'd love to have for real, but what i'd love to do is start a nonprofit with my best girl and a team of really awesome people.

And we make a dent in all the darkness.

It's not fancy, or exotic or anything that makes money, but it is absolutely what would give my heart the largest amounts of joy and we write about what we're doing, and we'd bring all the things you're afraid of admitting exist, right on your front door.

We'd empower, we'd restore, we'd bring jesus and love to people and places who desperately need it.

And we'd do it in an authentic, real, grassroots kind of way.

Not because we're mimicking Jen Hatmaker or Bob Goff or Shane Claiborne or anyone else....but because we are passionate about doing something worth while. something that will make a difference.

I'm a doer, I'm a dreamer, too, obviously, but mostly i'm a doer. And I'd like to be doing some good in a world that so desperately needs it.

So, until such time where i run a non profit that is kicking ass and taking names for Jesus. I will continue to press on with my really vague treasure map that is my life in a search for a life that will bring glory and honor that is worthy of being called a Christ Follower.

And i think that's all you can really ask of anyone.