Too many things I haven't done yet, too many sunsets i haven't seen...

whoa. I've been on a technology hiatus for the last 10 days, and to be honest, it hasn't been as hard as i expected it to be.

I will say one thing though, laptops are spendy and if they break, it's kind of a giant pain in the butt.

So what have been doing without my beloved lola (my laptop)....i actually have no idea. I feel like i haven't been doing anything, yet i feel like i've been kind of busy.

I've spent a lot of time lost in day dreams about random things like my wedding, what my future will be like, having a real job....and wondering when (and if) things will ever be less of a struggle.

I'm trying really hard to be thrifty, which is actually really hard for me. I don't have much disposable income, but i convince myself that it's not that big of a deal.

Hello, Nicole. it is a big deal, a VERY big deal. do not spend money you don't have.....whoops.  I'm trying to be a lot better about it, especially since i've had to get my car and computer fixed in the last 2 weeks. I'm officially not spending any money i do not have to, which will do a number on my social life (or in theory will kind of rl it, but let's face it, what social life)

Meanwhile, i've spent a lot of time outside which is good for my tan and mood. HEY vitamin d. spent lots a time in the fountains when it was terribly hot out. didn't get arrested. three cheers for not having a criminal record.


I'm also trying to get the ball rolling again on youth min stuff, but i feel very static. It's no ones fault but my own, but i feel kind of stuck.

Prayer walks are do not exist right, which should change, maybe starting tomorrow. i don't NEED to go with Melissa. i can go on my own. I'm really not a great prayer and it is something i do want to work on.

Does anyone else think that lube and condom commercials are among the most ridiculous things that are out there.....i mean, really? this is not me being a prude either because i'm in full support of all those things....they are just so.....stupid. Does that REALLY need air time? i think no....

Not going to see Adele. I'm actually more bummed than is necessary. i will just have to listen to adele radio on pandora until i literally cannot even stand to hear the beginning chords of songs.....

In addition to all the above jibberish, i have ants in my apartment, and i thought i might have pink eye. I'm very lucky to have a mom to call who knows about these things. There's something really great about being able to call your mom. I hope when i'm a mom, i'll be just as in the know, but a little less crazy.

my head is getting fuzzy. too much benadryl. life is happy. it's a sorta fairytale.